today is papu's first death anniversary.. .
is it okay to say happy anniversary?
haaaaaay....
uwi ka na pop's...
i miss you so much...
Sana..
10 months ago
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
bangenge lang...
the other night, nag bro-browse ako sa friendster and andami kong nakita na pictures ng mga classmates namin nung highschool na kinasal, mga binyag ng babies nila, at iba't ibang mga ka chuvahan...
out of the blue, i just blurted out... 'nakaka inggit... bakit kaya wala pa akong napupuntahang ganitong okasyon sa 'min nila maryan and meng?'
na isang malaking pagkakamali dahil nasa likod ko lang pala ang mahadera kong kapatid... na sumagot ng... 'asa ka pa eh tomboy naman kayung tatlo!!!'
haaaaaaaaaaay...
out of the blue, i just blurted out... 'nakaka inggit... bakit kaya wala pa akong napupuntahang ganitong okasyon sa 'min nila maryan and meng?'
na isang malaking pagkakamali dahil nasa likod ko lang pala ang mahadera kong kapatid... na sumagot ng... 'asa ka pa eh tomboy naman kayung tatlo!!!'
haaaaaaaaaaay...
bangenge quote for the day
classm8 ni mik: " jan-mik pag naging doctor ka nga, i-lipo mo si lina... "
mik: "bakit?"
classm8 ni mik: ... para ma-solve ang oil crisis!!!
ngek!
mik: "bakit?"
classm8 ni mik: ... para ma-solve ang oil crisis!!!
ngek!
Monday, July 28, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
You Don't Mess with the Zohan
well, i would say that watching adam sandler's movie, you don't mess with the zohan is just a big waste of time... this movie is so full of crap.crap.crap. it's about an Israeli Counterterrorist who leaves his hectic military-life to go to America and become a hairstylist... blah.blah.blah.. my rating: NEGATIVE TWO TICKETS...
haaaay... naumpisahan ko na kasi yung movie kaya pinilit kong tapusin... impernes... nakatulong siya sa sakit ko na insomia... i demand a full refund sa nagamit kong kuryente sa panonood nitong film na ito!!! leche!!!
Saturday, July 26, 2008
The Other Side of Me
(an excerpt of sydney sheldon's memoir...)
The Other Side of Me
by Sidney Sheldon
CHAPTER 1
The Other Side of Me
by Sidney Sheldon
CHAPTER 1
At the age of seventeen, working as a delivery boy at Afremow's drugstore in Chicago was the perfect job, because it made it possible for me to steal enough sleeping pills to commit suicide. I was not certain exactly how many pills I would need, so I arbitrarily decided on twenty, and I was careful to pocket only a few at a time so as not to arouse the suspicion of our pharmacist. I had read that whiskey and sleeping pills were a deadly combination, and I intended to mix them, to make sure I would die.
It was Saturday—the Saturday I had been waiting for. My parents would be away for the weekend and my brother, Richard, was staying at a friend's. Our apartment would be deserted, so there would be no one there to interfere with my plan.
At six o'clock, the pharmacist called out, "Closing time."
He had no idea how right he was. It was time to close out all the things that were wrong with my life. I knew it wasn't just me. It was the whole country.
The year was 1934, and America was going through a devastating crisis. The stock market had crashed five years before and thousands of banks had failed. Businesses were folding everywhere. More than thirteen million people had lost their jobs and were desperate. Wages had plunged to as low as a nickel an hour. A million vagabonds, including two hundred thousand children, were roaming the country. We were in the grip of a disastrous depression. Former millionaires were committing suicide, and executives were selling apples in the streets.
The most popular song was "Gloomy Sunday." I had memorized some of the lyrics:
Gloomy is Sunday
With shadows I spend it all
My heart and I
Have decided to end it all
The world was bleak, and it fit my mood perfectly. I had reached the depths of despair. I could see no rhyme or reason for my existence. I felt dislocated and lost. I was miserable and desperately longing for something that I couldn't define or name.
We lived near Lake Michigan, only a few blocks from the shore, and one night I walked down there to try to calm myself. It was a windy night, and the sky was filled with clouds.
I looked up and said, "If there is a God, show yourself to me."
And as I stood there staring at the sky, the clouds merged together, forming a huge face. There was a sudden flash of lightning that gave the face blazing eyes. I ran all the way home in a panic.
I lived with my family in a small, third-floor apartment in Rogers Park. The great showman Mike Todd said that he was often broke but he never felt poor. I, however, felt poor all the time because we were living in the demeaning kind of grinding poverty where, in a freezing winter, you had to keep the radiator off to save money and you learned to turn the lights out when not in use. You squeezed the last drops out of the ketchup bottle and the last dab of toothpaste out of the tube. But I was about to escape all that.
When I arrived at our dreary apartment, it was deserted. My parents had already left for the weekend and my brother had gone. There was no one to stop me from what I intended to do.
I walked into the little bedroom that Richard and I shared and I carefully removed the bag of sleeping pills I had hidden under the dresser. Next, I went into the kitchen, took a bottle of bourbon from the shelf where my father kept it, and carried it back to the bedroom. I looked at the pills and the bourbon and I wondered how long it would take for them to work. I poured some whiskey into a glass and raised it to my lips. I would not let myself think about what I was doing. I took a swallow of the whiskey, and the acrid taste of it made me choke. I picked up a handful of sleeping pills and started to raise them to my mouth, when a voice said, "What are you doing?"
I spun around, spilling some of the whiskey and dropping some of the pills.
My father was standing in the bedroom doorway. He moved closer. "I didn't know you drank."
I looked at him, stunned. "I—I thought you were gone."
"I forgot something. I'll ask you again: What are you doing?" He took the glass of whiskey from my hand.
My mind was racing. "Nothing—nothing."
He was frowning. "This isn't like you, Sidney. What's wrong?" He saw the pile of sleeping pills. "My God! What's going on here? What are these?"
No plausible lie came to my mind. I said defiantly, "They're sleeping pills."
"Why?"
"I'm going to—to commit suicide."
There was a silence. Then my father said, "I had no idea you were so unhappy."
"You can't stop me, because if you stop me now I'll do it tomorrow."
He stood there, studying me. "It's your life. You can do anything you want with it." He hesitated. "If you're not in too big a hurry, why don't we go for a little walk?"
I knew exactly what he was thinking. My father was a salesman. He was going to try to talk me out of my plan, but he didn't have a chance. I knew what I was going to do. I said, "All right."
"Put on a coat. You don't want to catch cold."
The irony of that made me smile.
Five minutes later, my father and I were headed down windswept streets that were empty of pedestrians because of the freezing temperature.
After a long silence, my father said, "Tell me about it, son. Why do you want to commit suicide?"
Where could I begin? How could I explain to him how lonely and trapped I felt? I desperately wanted a better life—but there was no better life for me. I wanted a wonderful future and there was no wonderful future. I had glowing daydreams, but at the end of the day, I was a delivery boy working in a drugstore.
My fantasy was to go to college, but there was no money for that. My dream had been to become a writer. I had written dozens of short stories and sent them to Story magazine, Collier's, and The Saturday Evening Post, and I had gotten back printed rejections. I had finally decided I couldn't spend the rest of my life in this suffocating misery.
My father was talking to me. ". . . and there are so many beautiful places in the world you haven't seen . . ."
I tuned him out. If he leaves tonight, I can go on with my plan.
". . . you'd love Rome . . ."
If he tries to stop me now, I'll do it when he leaves. I was busy with my thoughts, barely listening to what he was saying.
"Sidney, you told me that you wanted to be a writer more than anything in the world."
He suddenly had my attention. "That was yesterday."
"What about tomorrow?"
I looked at him, puzzled. "What?"
"You don't know what can happen tomorrow. Life is like a novel, isn't it? It's filled with suspense. You have no idea what's going to happen until you turn the page."
"I know what's going to happen. Nothing."
"You don't really know that, do you? Every day is a different page, Sidney, and they can be full of surprises. You'll never know what's next until you turn the page."
I thought about that. He did have a point. Every tomorrow was like the next page of a novel.
We turned the corner and walked down a deserted street. "If you really want to commit suicide, Sidney, I understand. But I'd hate to see you close the book too soon and miss all the excitement that could happen to you on the next page—the page you're going to write."
Don't close the book too soon . . . Was I closing it too soon? Something wonderful could happen tomorrow.
Either my father was a superb salesman or I wasn't fully committed to ending my life, because by the end of the next block, I had decided to postpone my plan.
But I intended to keep my options open.
It was Saturday—the Saturday I had been waiting for. My parents would be away for the weekend and my brother, Richard, was staying at a friend's. Our apartment would be deserted, so there would be no one there to interfere with my plan.
At six o'clock, the pharmacist called out, "Closing time."
He had no idea how right he was. It was time to close out all the things that were wrong with my life. I knew it wasn't just me. It was the whole country.
The year was 1934, and America was going through a devastating crisis. The stock market had crashed five years before and thousands of banks had failed. Businesses were folding everywhere. More than thirteen million people had lost their jobs and were desperate. Wages had plunged to as low as a nickel an hour. A million vagabonds, including two hundred thousand children, were roaming the country. We were in the grip of a disastrous depression. Former millionaires were committing suicide, and executives were selling apples in the streets.
The most popular song was "Gloomy Sunday." I had memorized some of the lyrics:
Gloomy is Sunday
With shadows I spend it all
My heart and I
Have decided to end it all
The world was bleak, and it fit my mood perfectly. I had reached the depths of despair. I could see no rhyme or reason for my existence. I felt dislocated and lost. I was miserable and desperately longing for something that I couldn't define or name.
We lived near Lake Michigan, only a few blocks from the shore, and one night I walked down there to try to calm myself. It was a windy night, and the sky was filled with clouds.
I looked up and said, "If there is a God, show yourself to me."
And as I stood there staring at the sky, the clouds merged together, forming a huge face. There was a sudden flash of lightning that gave the face blazing eyes. I ran all the way home in a panic.
I lived with my family in a small, third-floor apartment in Rogers Park. The great showman Mike Todd said that he was often broke but he never felt poor. I, however, felt poor all the time because we were living in the demeaning kind of grinding poverty where, in a freezing winter, you had to keep the radiator off to save money and you learned to turn the lights out when not in use. You squeezed the last drops out of the ketchup bottle and the last dab of toothpaste out of the tube. But I was about to escape all that.
When I arrived at our dreary apartment, it was deserted. My parents had already left for the weekend and my brother had gone. There was no one to stop me from what I intended to do.
I walked into the little bedroom that Richard and I shared and I carefully removed the bag of sleeping pills I had hidden under the dresser. Next, I went into the kitchen, took a bottle of bourbon from the shelf where my father kept it, and carried it back to the bedroom. I looked at the pills and the bourbon and I wondered how long it would take for them to work. I poured some whiskey into a glass and raised it to my lips. I would not let myself think about what I was doing. I took a swallow of the whiskey, and the acrid taste of it made me choke. I picked up a handful of sleeping pills and started to raise them to my mouth, when a voice said, "What are you doing?"
I spun around, spilling some of the whiskey and dropping some of the pills.
My father was standing in the bedroom doorway. He moved closer. "I didn't know you drank."
I looked at him, stunned. "I—I thought you were gone."
"I forgot something. I'll ask you again: What are you doing?" He took the glass of whiskey from my hand.
My mind was racing. "Nothing—nothing."
He was frowning. "This isn't like you, Sidney. What's wrong?" He saw the pile of sleeping pills. "My God! What's going on here? What are these?"
No plausible lie came to my mind. I said defiantly, "They're sleeping pills."
"Why?"
"I'm going to—to commit suicide."
There was a silence. Then my father said, "I had no idea you were so unhappy."
"You can't stop me, because if you stop me now I'll do it tomorrow."
He stood there, studying me. "It's your life. You can do anything you want with it." He hesitated. "If you're not in too big a hurry, why don't we go for a little walk?"
I knew exactly what he was thinking. My father was a salesman. He was going to try to talk me out of my plan, but he didn't have a chance. I knew what I was going to do. I said, "All right."
"Put on a coat. You don't want to catch cold."
The irony of that made me smile.
Five minutes later, my father and I were headed down windswept streets that were empty of pedestrians because of the freezing temperature.
After a long silence, my father said, "Tell me about it, son. Why do you want to commit suicide?"
Where could I begin? How could I explain to him how lonely and trapped I felt? I desperately wanted a better life—but there was no better life for me. I wanted a wonderful future and there was no wonderful future. I had glowing daydreams, but at the end of the day, I was a delivery boy working in a drugstore.
My fantasy was to go to college, but there was no money for that. My dream had been to become a writer. I had written dozens of short stories and sent them to Story magazine, Collier's, and The Saturday Evening Post, and I had gotten back printed rejections. I had finally decided I couldn't spend the rest of my life in this suffocating misery.
My father was talking to me. ". . . and there are so many beautiful places in the world you haven't seen . . ."
I tuned him out. If he leaves tonight, I can go on with my plan.
". . . you'd love Rome . . ."
If he tries to stop me now, I'll do it when he leaves. I was busy with my thoughts, barely listening to what he was saying.
"Sidney, you told me that you wanted to be a writer more than anything in the world."
He suddenly had my attention. "That was yesterday."
"What about tomorrow?"
I looked at him, puzzled. "What?"
"You don't know what can happen tomorrow. Life is like a novel, isn't it? It's filled with suspense. You have no idea what's going to happen until you turn the page."
"I know what's going to happen. Nothing."
"You don't really know that, do you? Every day is a different page, Sidney, and they can be full of surprises. You'll never know what's next until you turn the page."
I thought about that. He did have a point. Every tomorrow was like the next page of a novel.
We turned the corner and walked down a deserted street. "If you really want to commit suicide, Sidney, I understand. But I'd hate to see you close the book too soon and miss all the excitement that could happen to you on the next page—the page you're going to write."
Don't close the book too soon . . . Was I closing it too soon? Something wonderful could happen tomorrow.
Either my father was a superb salesman or I wasn't fully committed to ending my life, because by the end of the next block, I had decided to postpone my plan.
But I intended to keep my options open.
*this piece was posted on my friendster blog last june 2007, a month before my father died...
he closed his book too soon...
one down...
one down... nakakita ako ng dvd copy ng made of honor and finally nagkaroon na rin ng progress ang humahabang list ng aking movie line up... kasabay nung dvd ng made of honor, binili ko rin yung you don't mess with the zohan, tska the love guru. unfortunately, hindi pa ko nakakahanap ng time para panoorin yung zohan tsaka love guru.. .
made of honor... it was an okay movie... hindi siya ganun kaganda para tumatak sa memory mo, probably a year from now hindi mo na siya mare recall... pero hindi naman siya ganun kapangit... it's a feel good movie tsaka pag gusto mong ma-in love sa concept ng love... panoorin niyo to... i'll give it two and a half tickets! (butch francisco ikaw ba ito?)
sa july 31 (thursday) may meeting akong aatendan sa glorieta... ako lang mag isa sa cluster namin ang naka sched sa araw na yun... sana matapos ng maaga para makapanood ng a very special love... ewwwwww... cheeeeeeesy...
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
archie.. .
meron pong napakalungkot na balita.. . dahil po sa hirap ng buhay... we have to give up archie for adoption... napunta naman siya sa pamilya na alam namin na mabibigyan siya ng magandang buhay... we're gonna miss you archie!!!!
haaay naku.... akalain mo ba naman kasing sobrang siba ni archie.... kumakain na ng solid food, dumedede pa sa nanay niya!!! malas kamo nung humarbat kay archie dahil tiyak kong mamamalubi yun.... sosyal pa naman ang taste nun... hindi kumakain kung hindi rin lang porterhouse steak o kaya beluga caviar!!!
kidding aside... mami-miss ko yun kasi sobrang lambing niya.... pag galing ako sa gapo...sasalubungin ako nun sa gate pa lang.... sobrang playful... at pag pagod na yun... bubulagta na lang yun na parang rug... ang cute niya!!!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
better in time
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
[Chorus: X2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Monday, July 07, 2008
aristocrat.. .
mukha kaming mag-ina nung manager ko noh?
grilled squid.. . yumyum
mawawala ba crispy pata?
after office hours... nagkayayaan lang na mag dinner... kasi feeling namin, parang sasabog na utak namin sa dami ng work... haaaay...
after office hours... nagkayayaan lang na mag dinner... kasi feeling namin, parang sasabog na utak namin sa dami ng work... haaaay...
Friday, July 04, 2008
my movie line up...
here are the list of movies that i want to watch.... sana magkaroon ng time... tsaka sana makasama ko sila maryan and meng... sumulat na nga ako kay vicky morales eh....
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
welcome to the doggie world!!!!
ei guys... i want you all to meet archiekins... short for archuleta... let us all welcome him to the doggie world!!!!
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